“But I will Trust in you.” Psalm 55:23b
And so, camp comes to a close. What a summer. So many amazing new memories and so many things to be thankful for. In this passing season God has really just surrounded me with people that have generously poured into me, and he has also given me the opportunities to pour into others as well. And, while I’m currently still a little mentally/physically exhausted from this final week of camp, I feel as if I have been filled up to the brim with joy and fulfillment for what I’ve seen God do in my life and in the lives of all those that he’s touched at camp. God is faithful, and as I leave one thing behind me, he leads me on according to his will for what he has prepared for me to toil in next. And man, am I excited to be a part of it.
While the past two weeks kind of blur together in my mind, one memory does stick out to me clearly. This past week I was having a hard time focusing my heart on sacrificing all I had to serve my campers. I felt out of it and couldn’t seem to get into a good mood for several days. Finally, I realized I desperately needed intentional time in the word with God. While the past few days I had read my bible with little purpose, today I clung to it, searching for God’s purpose and peace to fill me. I came across Psalm 55 and as I read, two verses stood out. The first was verse 2 which says “…I am restless…”. I related deeply to this because I felt extremely restless seeking to fix my own problems and find peace on my own. But then, as I read on to the end of the chapter, I read David’s final words “But I will trust in you”. As I looked at these two verses together, I prayed it out loud, asking God that it to be true in me. God I am restless, but I will trust in you. God I am anxious, but I will trust in you. God I am tired and weak, but I will trust in you. These words filled me with hope. Hope that whatever I felt or struggled with I could lift it up to God and trust that he would do with it as he willed for his glory. This truth is so encouraging and fills me with so much peace because it is no longer all on me but in God’s control. We can trust in him.
Only 2 more weeks until I’m on a plane, saying goodbye to my family, and officially meeting the team I’ll be with for the next year. It’s coming way to fast. But I do believe that I’m ready for it, other than all the packing I need to get done before hand. It feels like internally I have so much to do but I can’t wrap my head around what needs to get done. Despite this feeling I have been prioritizing spending as much time with my family as I can and enjoying our time together. So far, we’ve done a tubing afternoon, gone to the beach, had some family dinners out, and we have a few more plans coming up the next few weekends before I head out. I love my family, I love my friends, and I’m going to miss them dearly, but at the same time I have been waiting so long to go that I’m ready to be there now. I still want these moments with close ones to never end. So, as I’m currently experiencing these relationships and moments, I’ll make the most of them, until it’s time to say goodbye until we meet again.
I again at this time just want to say thank you to all those that have given these past few months, and specifically these past two weeks including Ashleigh Brady and Cannon Carter, and Joe and Dena Cade. Because of y’all I am over 90% funded! But I do still have a little over 1,000 dollars left to raise. If you have not given yet or, if you’ve been thinking of giving and haven’t, I urge you to consider giving whatever amount you can. I will greatly appreciate it and I know that God will bless it, and that he will use it to accomplish His will. Whether that’s through me, or through whatever God leads you to use your money for. Again, thank you so much for all that y’all have given and done for me this summer and I look forward to sharing the in-person details of this trip starting very shortly in the next few weeks.
Lastly just a few prayer requests for these final weeks at home:
- For me to enjoy these moments with my family and friends while I have them
- For all the things to get done that need to be done before I go
- For me to rest while I can and for God to prepare me spiritually before I arrive overseas
And so, I end my blog writing until I’ll pick it back up again overseas. I am so excited for this coming season of life, and I am also so grateful for what this season of life has been to me as well. God has done some great things and he will continue to do so, both through me and the people that are coming along with us on this trip. Until I’m there, God bless y’all and grow y’all and carry you on until we cross the finish line and see our loving Savior face to face.
